Though I try my best to be positive and encouraging, it's tough when you know your purpose and it seems like everything is coming to hold you back. I mean, I've hit a dry spot with performing, my album release is on hold, which is holding back the bigger, paying gigs, and I can't seem to find employment that'll sustain me in the mean time and allow me enough freedom to keep this ball rolling. (Yes, even with a degree!) So, I'm broke right now. I mean, I am B-R-O-K-E!!
Never been so broke in all my life. So broke it makes me question my drive. Am I working, searching, listening, thinking hard enough? How driven am I? What am I willing to do? Am I as ambitious as I think I am? Am I relentlessly driven enough to be successful with the career path I've chosen? Do I have things mixed up? How irresponsible am I? Will I be an old man in the same position I'm in today or is success really right around the corner, as I tend to believe?
Of course, the plan is always to stay positive, but is what's positive what's true? I guess no one really knows until they do. I just thank God for strength, courage, wisdom, peace, patience, kindness, humility, joy, and faith to see this through and find out.
